But You Were Fine Yesterday {The Mighty}

...There’s so many times when I get a remark or a look or a suggestion of “but you seemed fine yesterday.” These suggestions make my blood boil, because perhaps I had a mask on yesterday, or perhaps I didn’t and today I just feel like shit. Mental illness (unfortunately) doesn’t work quite so neatly and … Continue reading But You Were Fine Yesterday {The Mighty}

What Complex Trauma Feels Like To Me {The Mighty}

Complex post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) and complex trauma are just that — complex. In fact, I believe all mental health and trauma are. It’s all so complex. Some days it looks like managing triggers — finding a way to keep grounded. And managing it all can feel overwhelming and painful, and still, somehow, I am … Continue reading What Complex Trauma Feels Like To Me {The Mighty}

A love letter to anyone who struggled to shower today {The Mighty}

This is a love letter to all those for whom showering is repeatedly a laborious exercise, physically, emotionally or both.7 To those who spend days putting it off because you know just how exhausting or painful it feels, right down to your bones, just to stand under the water for that long. Those who do … Continue reading A love letter to anyone who struggled to shower today {The Mighty}

21 Reasons Why Victims of Rape and Sexual Abuse Do Not Report (Told Through 21 Real Life Voices) ~ Huffington Post

Click here for the full article at The Huffington Post Throughout my life, from childhood into adulthood, I have been raped and sexually assaulted multiple times, and not once have I reported an incident. Recently I read a comment on an article I wrote about the last time I was sexually assaulted, stating they were … Continue reading 21 Reasons Why Victims of Rape and Sexual Abuse Do Not Report (Told Through 21 Real Life Voices) ~ Huffington Post

The Last Time I Was Sexually Abused: “No More” ~ Huffington Post

The Last Time I Was Sexually Abused: No More - Huffington Post For the full article click here: The Last Time I Was Sexually Abused: No More - Huffington Post

The Last Time. 

Because emotional abuse can be just as destructive as other types of abuse and this was the last time... "i don’t remember the first time we spoke, but i remember the last; words dripping from your mouth like a poison you believed i would drink. and i would have once believed it too, i was … Continue reading The Last Time. 

Tell Me That You’ve Got This…Just for Tonight

My words, up at Elephant Journal...   "...Build me a sanctuary of space and time and solitude, away from the loneliness that has built a home inside of me. Help me to let go. Grant me a weightless sleep, free from fright, allowing me the deepest blue oceans to explore without the terrors that drown. … Continue reading Tell Me That You’ve Got This…Just for Tonight

Dear Childhood

Dear Childhood, I’m sorry. I’m sorry I didn’t show up for you sooner. For a long time I didn’t know you were there. And when I met you, I didn’t have room for you in my life. You see, you are an ocean and I was happily paddling in my pools of denial. I didn’t … Continue reading Dear Childhood

Her Dark and Light and Color

The light is calling her. She can hear it as it shines in the distance. She can see how it covers the sky with all shades of beauty. She can feel it capturing the night, moulding with it, creating shade and color of artistic magnitude. But the darkness holds her down. Holds her still. Holds … Continue reading Her Dark and Light and Color

She is Life and She is Death

  She is a visionary in her dreams, blind in her waking. She is an innocent criminal and a sinful saint. She fights for her life to move closer to death And succumbs to her dying so she can continue living. She is a contradicted emotion wrapped in verified numb feeling. She stares up to … Continue reading She is Life and She is Death