love you I do

I love you. Yes you, who turned yourself inside out searching for answers, only to find them reflecting back at you on the bathroom floor as you lay in skin and soap and sweat and tears, but you didn’t know their ancient language; that long you’d held them inside. The one who keeps yourself awake…

This Life

This life. Life. Life. Damn, life is hard, and confusing and beautiful. I walk into a room filled with angels and I am greeted by a demon embracing my life more fiercely than I ever could grasp. And it’s got me, curled in its clutch like I’m longing to be held. I long and I…

I’d Tell Her

I’d tell her to allow herself to feel it while she’s going through it, and express that feeling, instead of burying it or dissociating through it all so it comes back later in often worse ways.I’d tell her that she is loved and deserves love.I’d tell her she is doing her very best and that…

50 of the thousands of lessons my 20s taught me

While some of these lessons have lodged somewhere deep inside, many of them I have learned and unlearned and relearned again and will continue learning for the rest of my life. So with five days until I turn 30, here are just 50 of the thousands of lessons my 20s have taught me, with heartfelt thanks to every person who has helped teach me over the last ten years, and lifetime, whether you knew you were helping or not.

Who am I?

Who am I? I’m someone who feels deeply, who in any given moment feels and holds multiple conflicting, contrasting, complimentary and complex emotions, sensations, experiences, all at once and separately in individual layers, together and apart. I’m someone who believes that we, all of us, as unique and connected and complex human beings, have an…