love you I do

I love you. Yes you, who turned yourself inside out searching for answers, only to find them reflecting back at you on the bathroom floor as you lay in skin and soap and sweat and tears, but you didn't know their ancient language; that long you'd held them inside. The one who keeps yourself awake … Continue reading love you I do

This Life

This life.Life.Life. Damn, life is hard, and confusing and beautiful.I walk into a room filled with angels and I am greeted by a demon embracing my life more fiercely than I ever could grasp.And it's got me, curled in its clutch like I'm longing to be held.I long and I long and I long.Yet, no … Continue reading This Life

I’d Tell Her

I'd tell her to allow herself to feel it while she's going through it, and express that feeling, instead of burying it or dissociating through it all so it comes back later in often worse ways.I'd tell her that she is loved and deserves love.I'd tell her she is doing her very best and that … Continue reading I’d Tell Her

you are beautiful, do you know?

Dear you,Do you know how beautiful you are?Do you realise the sun comes to greet you each day to light you up and warm your heart? Do you know the kind of strength it takes to greet her right back?Do you know I see you walking into each new day and laying down your heart, … Continue reading you are beautiful, do you know?

lay it all down, love

lay it all down, love. lay it all down.lie here beside me and lay it all down,i know you don't want to let go just yet,so keep hold or let go or let it be,here,now.i feel how heavy it is,how painful, how tiresome.i see you as you fight to keep going,to keep up,to keep it … Continue reading lay it all down, love

50 of the thousands of lessons my 20s taught me

While some of these lessons have lodged somewhere deep inside, many of them I have learned and unlearned and relearned again and will continue learning for the rest of my life. So with five days until I turn 30, here are just 50 of the thousands of lessons my 20s have taught me, with heartfelt thanks to every person who has helped teach me over the last ten years, and lifetime, whether you knew you were helping or not.

Who am I?

Who am I? I'm someone who feels deeply, who in any given moment feels and holds multiple conflicting, contrasting, complimentary and complex emotions, sensations, experiences, all at once and separately in individual layers, together and apart. I'm someone who believes that we, all of us, as unique and connected and complex human beings, have an … Continue reading Who am I?

I hope you know, love

I hope that in the moment this world stops turning you will know with unflinching certainty that I loved you, that I always loved you and that my life has been richer for you being in it. As you make your way through the days ahead I hope you find love to be more the … Continue reading I hope you know, love

Suicide & Love: We Are Not Alone {Elephant Journal}

I see the calls at this time of year for words on suicide—asking for stories and experiences and prevention advocacy and advice. Before now I felt that I had nothing to add to the conversation. I thought, “my story isn’t as worthy as theirs,” or “I’ve never attempted suicide, so the suicidal feelings I experience … Continue reading Suicide & Love: We Are Not Alone {Elephant Journal}

beautiful depth

I want you to know just how beautiful you are. I want you to know that, even on the darkest of days, You can light up any room, just by showing up And I'm so grateful you do. I'm grateful For every time you show up in the world, In whatever way you can on … Continue reading beautiful depth